February 22nd, 2022
indifferentNovember 8th, 2009
Steak, cooked medium rare, seasoned in Japanese seseme dressing, cooked with fresh green beans over rice and Korean seaweed. Mmmmm.
October 6th, 2009
amusedOctober 2nd, 2009
Actually I quit after 500 pages. Here's me talking about why. I don't want to mess with the formatting here, so, link to my blogger page instead ;)
Off to exercise... *sigh* Why does it have to be rainy? Maybe I'll stick a hoody on anyway and go for a walk....
Off to exercise... *sigh* Why does it have to be rainy? Maybe I'll stick a hoody on anyway and go for a walk....
busySeptember 29th, 2009
All in all, best book I've read since Good Omens (Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman), though considering that's the last book in English I've read most of the way through (I got distracted with about 20 pages left...), I do suppose that's not actually saying a lot...
( ramblings and musings )
Anyway, I'd recommend it. I'm on to reading Terry Brooks's "The Sword of Shannara." I've just started chapter three, and I'm kinda going "1400 page book... Seriously?" and wondering if I'm going to finish it. It's really not grabbing me. Could be the writing style, which is clumsy, repetitive and inconsistent. It could be the characters, which are completely unbelievable and 2 chapters in I should care about them at least in some regard... which I don't. We'll see how long it keeps my attention. After that it's Moon Called by Patricia something-or-other, and then Terry Pratchett's... I forgot the title. Save the best for last. :P
( ramblings and musings )
Anyway, I'd recommend it. I'm on to reading Terry Brooks's "The Sword of Shannara." I've just started chapter three, and I'm kinda going "1400 page book... Seriously?" and wondering if I'm going to finish it. It's really not grabbing me. Could be the writing style, which is clumsy, repetitive and inconsistent. It could be the characters, which are completely unbelievable and 2 chapters in I should care about them at least in some regard... which I don't. We'll see how long it keeps my attention. After that it's Moon Called by Patricia something-or-other, and then Terry Pratchett's... I forgot the title. Save the best for last. :P
tiredSeptember 26th, 2009
We have principals and laws we're willing to throw away for "change".
Sounds about right to me. I wasn't there. I don't know what happened, but I want to know what reasoning the police chief used to declare an assembly unlawful. What reasoning did the police use who took down a girl who was backing away from them, completely unarmed? I don't care what she was saying, what the protest was about, or what people were saying in the streets. I want to see a video of the civilian who fired a weapon at the police to justify swat teams attacking unarmed civilians in the street. Or is our president just making another statement to the international community that he can "change" our childish and shameful behavior?
I feel like I'm watching videos of the 70s, or of some other country's upheaval... not my own. Gassing assemblies is only going to make more people assemble and piss them off. Covering it up isn't going to do anything. Yelling at cameramen to move their cameras is only going to make them want the video even more.
I think the shock of this whole thing is going to take a while to wear off. I still don't want to believe that's my country.
Sounds about right to me. I wasn't there. I don't know what happened, but I want to know what reasoning the police chief used to declare an assembly unlawful. What reasoning did the police use who took down a girl who was backing away from them, completely unarmed? I don't care what she was saying, what the protest was about, or what people were saying in the streets. I want to see a video of the civilian who fired a weapon at the police to justify swat teams attacking unarmed civilians in the street. Or is our president just making another statement to the international community that he can "change" our childish and shameful behavior?
I feel like I'm watching videos of the 70s, or of some other country's upheaval... not my own. Gassing assemblies is only going to make more people assemble and piss them off. Covering it up isn't going to do anything. Yelling at cameramen to move their cameras is only going to make them want the video even more.
I think the shock of this whole thing is going to take a while to wear off. I still don't want to believe that's my country.
angryJuly 3rd, 2009
When his mouth is shut - totally buying the psycho canibal killer. When he opens his mouth... actually, I think it's the eyes. Maybe the contacts.... something just made me bust out laughing. The smile though, and the laugh, *falls over* Oh and I'm less than a minute into the episode.
April 6th, 2009
Personally, I thought the book was terribly written. I'm bored and on a vampire kick so I'm watching the movie...... GAH! Bad acting, bad script, bad story-line, bad all around!
"Are you afraid?"
*panting* "No"
"Then ask me a question while I'm all dramatic and ask it for you"
*really bad CG running*
"Nurr, I'm a vampire. I sparkle"
I'm sorry, I can't resist poking fun at it. I really, I know some of you like it, and I saw some charisma in the book - flat heroine, you can put yourself in her place - but the movie?.... just emphasizes of much of a whiny dick Edward is and how lacking in personality Isabella is. I see how it's a best seller... in the way that flailing fans would make it so... kinda like Harry Potter... but points in Harry Potter's direction, at least the world was interesting.
Vacations are apparently bad things. Last movie I watched that was this bad would be Eregon. Actually... points for Twilight, at least she made up her own half-assed (really REALLY stereotyped [almost offensively so] and the oposite of believable) mythology instead of stealing from every famous book in the genre.....
Why does bad literature keep getting popular?
"Are you afraid?"
*panting* "No"
"Then ask me a question while I'm all dramatic and ask it for you"
*really bad CG running*
"Nurr, I'm a vampire. I sparkle"
I'm sorry, I can't resist poking fun at it. I really, I know some of you like it, and I saw some charisma in the book - flat heroine, you can put yourself in her place - but the movie?.... just emphasizes of much of a whiny dick Edward is and how lacking in personality Isabella is. I see how it's a best seller... in the way that flailing fans would make it so... kinda like Harry Potter... but points in Harry Potter's direction, at least the world was interesting.
Vacations are apparently bad things. Last movie I watched that was this bad would be Eregon. Actually... points for Twilight, at least she made up her own half-assed (really REALLY stereotyped [almost offensively so] and the oposite of believable) mythology instead of stealing from every famous book in the genre.....
Why does bad literature keep getting popular?
boredMarch 29th, 2009
Nightline Link
This was interesting to watch. Can't say as I agree with any specific person, but they all brought up good points. If you have time.
This was interesting to watch. Can't say as I agree with any specific person, but they all brought up good points. If you have time.
March 28th, 2009
A link to the video
It's a bit long, and I know it's contraversial, but it got my attention. What bothers me most is that nobody seems willing to even do research into it. Doctors are willing to give a 17 year old child (me) drugs that were, at the time, still being tested for use in extreme cases of schizophrenia even though I was diagnosed with "likely, schizophrenia" which later changed to "depression with psychotic features." Here's a link to the drug information I was on. This information wasn't given to me. I wasn't even given a perscription. I was handed sample boxes, and when that ran out, I had to go back to the hospital and get more. It says on the site:
INDICATION: ABILIFY is indicated for:
* Treatment of Schizophrenia in adults and in adolescents 13 to 17 years of age
And then right after
When taking ABILIFY call your doctor right away if you have new or worsening mood symptoms, unusual changes in behavior, or thoughts of suicide. Patients and their caregivers should be especially observant for such symptoms within the first few months of treatment or after a change in dose.
Here's another side effect: Very high fever, rigid muscles, shaking, confusion, sweating, or increased heart rate and blood pressure. These may be signs of a condition called neuroleptic malignant syndrome (NMS), a rare but serious side effect which could be fatal
Guess which one I got? I don't remember almost a month of my life, and at the time, that was the medicine I had just started taking. Not that I was in a good frame of mind to begin with, but I was almost immediately shut down. I remember lying in bed thinking I was suffocating, boiling up. It hurt to move. My cotton pajamas hurt me. I shaved my head because my hair was choking me. Apparently I went to school. I could have sworn, and I still think I was at home in bed. Maybe now they've got the medicine stabalised, but at the time, 2002, the doctor flat out said "We're using this in testing in one of our adult facilities for patients with severe schizophrenia." And they gave it to me - diagnosed and perscribed by a psychologist, not a psychiatrist, cause he was away from the hospital. Completely unsupervised. It wasn't like I was inpatient at the time, though a month later I sure as hell was. Nope, they handed my mom and I sample boxes, and two weeks later I had to drive myself back there and get more because I ran out and the back of the box told me that I couldn't suddenly stop the medication. Well, I did. I didn't finish the second box because as far as I could tell it wasn't helping. Do we leave stuff like that to a 17 year old who is literally out of her mind to judge? Not good planning, but that's how unsupervised my medications were. (My mom didn't know I had taken myself off of all my medications that next summer until the winter of 2004 when I had been able to proove that I was functioning for months off of them. Toilet for the win. The rats got nice doses of anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, anti-anxieties, and ADD pills.) The run of pills I got in the hospital after the Abilify nightmare made me gain 20 pounds in a matter of weeks while I was living on, literally, whole wheat bread and butter. Before I could eat a large pizza in one sitting and I was eating to maintain my weight so it didn't go too low. I got 2nd degree burns on my back in two hours because my doctor failed to warn me about them making me sensative to sunlight. Two summers later, after I'd been off for two years, I got sun poisoning. I still can't go out in the sun. If you saw pictures of me as a kid, up through early high school (I think only one or maybe two people here do...), or if you knew me then, you'd know how dark I used to get. I was brown in the summer and still pretty tan in the winter. I never knew I was white. That's the reason, even though I know I should be on something to balance me out, I refuse to take anything or see mental health "specialists." My brain is not a toy or an experiment. I know some of my friends are going into that field, or work in that field, but yeah.
So the fact that a system that did that to me won't even try something that people are saying works, that pisses me off. I don't know if that stuff works, but I certainly can't see the harm in drug companies trying it. They try everything else.
Anyway, I think the video is worth watching. A link to the video again. I'm not trying to start a chain or anything, but if you agree with it, at least getting something like that tested, I think it's worth passing around.
www.norml.org
It's a bit long, and I know it's contraversial, but it got my attention. What bothers me most is that nobody seems willing to even do research into it. Doctors are willing to give a 17 year old child (me) drugs that were, at the time, still being tested for use in extreme cases of schizophrenia even though I was diagnosed with "likely, schizophrenia" which later changed to "depression with psychotic features." Here's a link to the drug information I was on. This information wasn't given to me. I wasn't even given a perscription. I was handed sample boxes, and when that ran out, I had to go back to the hospital and get more. It says on the site:
INDICATION: ABILIFY is indicated for:
* Treatment of Schizophrenia in adults and in adolescents 13 to 17 years of age
And then right after
When taking ABILIFY call your doctor right away if you have new or worsening mood symptoms, unusual changes in behavior, or thoughts of suicide. Patients and their caregivers should be especially observant for such symptoms within the first few months of treatment or after a change in dose.
Here's another side effect: Very high fever, rigid muscles, shaking, confusion, sweating, or increased heart rate and blood pressure. These may be signs of a condition called neuroleptic malignant syndrome (NMS), a rare but serious side effect which could be fatal
Guess which one I got? I don't remember almost a month of my life, and at the time, that was the medicine I had just started taking. Not that I was in a good frame of mind to begin with, but I was almost immediately shut down. I remember lying in bed thinking I was suffocating, boiling up. It hurt to move. My cotton pajamas hurt me. I shaved my head because my hair was choking me. Apparently I went to school. I could have sworn, and I still think I was at home in bed. Maybe now they've got the medicine stabalised, but at the time, 2002, the doctor flat out said "We're using this in testing in one of our adult facilities for patients with severe schizophrenia." And they gave it to me - diagnosed and perscribed by a psychologist, not a psychiatrist, cause he was away from the hospital. Completely unsupervised. It wasn't like I was inpatient at the time, though a month later I sure as hell was. Nope, they handed my mom and I sample boxes, and two weeks later I had to drive myself back there and get more because I ran out and the back of the box told me that I couldn't suddenly stop the medication. Well, I did. I didn't finish the second box because as far as I could tell it wasn't helping. Do we leave stuff like that to a 17 year old who is literally out of her mind to judge? Not good planning, but that's how unsupervised my medications were. (My mom didn't know I had taken myself off of all my medications that next summer until the winter of 2004 when I had been able to proove that I was functioning for months off of them. Toilet for the win. The rats got nice doses of anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, anti-anxieties, and ADD pills.) The run of pills I got in the hospital after the Abilify nightmare made me gain 20 pounds in a matter of weeks while I was living on, literally, whole wheat bread and butter. Before I could eat a large pizza in one sitting and I was eating to maintain my weight so it didn't go too low. I got 2nd degree burns on my back in two hours because my doctor failed to warn me about them making me sensative to sunlight. Two summers later, after I'd been off for two years, I got sun poisoning. I still can't go out in the sun. If you saw pictures of me as a kid, up through early high school (I think only one or maybe two people here do...), or if you knew me then, you'd know how dark I used to get. I was brown in the summer and still pretty tan in the winter. I never knew I was white. That's the reason, even though I know I should be on something to balance me out, I refuse to take anything or see mental health "specialists." My brain is not a toy or an experiment. I know some of my friends are going into that field, or work in that field, but yeah.
So the fact that a system that did that to me won't even try something that people are saying works, that pisses me off. I don't know if that stuff works, but I certainly can't see the harm in drug companies trying it. They try everything else.
Anyway, I think the video is worth watching. A link to the video again. I'm not trying to start a chain or anything, but if you agree with it, at least getting something like that tested, I think it's worth passing around.
www.norml.org